Monday, August 18, 2008

Cleaning Out the "Attic"


I've been looking through my "mental attic" recently.  It's been a bit disturbing for me.  I truly believe one should always look to the current day and forward.  That said, there are ghosts in my "attic" that won't leave me alone.  Some of this I've been sharing in my private journal and hopefully very soon with a therapist.  Also the current me, the one living on this floor, this day is incredibly stressed out.  You guys know I have physical ailments ~ I can handle that because I'm believing for complete healing.  The part that's hard for me to give to God is the everyday stress, strain and depression.  I really don't feel comfortable sharing that stuff in a public journal.  I just wanted you to know how my life is going right now.

I read your journals most every day.  I have a healthy list of favorites.  I tend to be a lurker lately . . . not commenting much.  I do so enjoy your words, poetry or prose and the very valuable (to me) gals who make graphics for us to share.  Donna, Chris, Sugar, Angela (can't remember all the names, sorry) ~ you are so wonderful to put your art, creations, adaptations and tag requests for us.  If there is anyone in J-Land who does not appreciate all the hard work these ladies do and still grabs their snags and tags, shame on you!  A simple thank you goes a long way.

OK ~ off the soapbox.  It has absolutely beautiful here in my part of SoCal.  The skies are overcast in the morning, but the rest of the day is reasonably cool and comfortable.  Lately our temperatures have not gone above the mid-high 70's.  If it reaches 80 degrees, we are complaining of the heat Where I stayed for a while and where my daughters live in the northern mountains, temperatures have ranged from 105 to 117 degrees.  Boy do I love being near the ocean.  For those of you suffering from the heat and humidity . . . I am so sorry.  If my home were big enough I'd host you all.

Six weeks or more ago, our landlord told us that new carpet was coming soon.  Rob and I tore out the old carpet in one bedroom and 1/2 the living room (well, he did most of it).  We have been waiting.  I came home in early June and have yet to unpack most of my belongings because we don't want to take it right back out again.  I miss my stuff and now the house is in an uproar to boot.  Unfortunately it's a family member of our landlord who is holding up progress.  Carpet is beautiful, paid for and ready to install.  The installer (family member) just hasn't gotten around to it.  I'm beginning to feel more sorry for our landlord than ourselves.  We have puppies and the training is going well, however "mistakes" happening are better on old flooring than new.

As I said before, I read your journals and think about you, adding you all to my prayers each day.  I pray for your lives to be full and healthy, fruitful and blessed.  I love you all,            


lanurseprn said...

I've got those ghosts, too. Nasty beasts. I hope you get your carpet soon. It's nice hearing from you.

sugarsweet056 said...

Blessings dear Penny, hoping whatever is bothering you will be taken away, & only good things replace them.
So kind of you to mention the tag makers, TY for that mention of all of us.
Hope you get that carpet down soon, & those pups get trained quickly! ;)
God bless you & family.

preciousone25 said...

Good to hear from you!!


jjdolfin9 said...

A good attic cleaning is good for the soul every now and then.  I've been known to lurk a bit myslef.  There are soooo many good journals and I just can't seem to find time to comment in every one that I read (last count was 73).  It's time consuming and I need time to play with my graphics
Hugs and Prayers, Joyce

lifesabench6 said...

Penny, I know exactly how you feel about trusting God with big things but everyday thins are so much harder!  You'll see what I mean~  Thank you for being so sweet~ You are in my prayers, and i hope ou andRob can be settled soon~ Love Carolyn

cacklinrosie101 said...

Penny, I sure hope whatever burdens you are carrying are lifted.  I get very depressed and refer to these times as my wanting to crawl in a hole days.  I think we all have things in our attics in our minds that need to be thrown away.  I always try to embrace the child within me and be kind to it.  I used to be be extremely hard on that child.  Anyway, I also lurk at times.  Sometimes I just don't have the strength, time or words to comment.  I'm just glad that you find journals to lift your spirits a bit.  Love n Hugs, Chris

lurkynat said...

Dear Penny, A beautiful entry!
thank you so much!